See it begins in this way. I am in a full energetic mood as I am being admitted to the college(1st year) after three years spent on homeschooling. Well this homeschooling was kinda totally cut out from social and public life. I was alone, my residence was situated in a most remote place where only adults had "perched" over the area. Hence, my interaction has deteriorated.
Anyhow, its been 6 months since I have been going to the college and still i am under total pressure. I am doing well in studies, which has been proved with my test marks and performance, as claimed by my corresponding lecturers. But unfortunately, all day during break times and gaps between two classes i and my classmates are free. I remain silent and listen to their discussions. Moreover, I am not a nerd...as I am good in studying but not a freak to be swimming in books every time. The topics my friends like to discuss is out of my interest. Most are gossips and glamor concerning Hollywood and bollywood. Well I tried to resemble in this but i don't have any special channels or magazine(nor does my mom allow coz i'll be grounded). Hence, this chapter remains closed. So here no question arises. Ok now comes the part of my speaking problem. which is the actual part that I am concerned with.
When I talk, say "I'm fine". These words will be well imprinted in my mind but when i speak up it'll emerge out as, "I'm file"...which sounds kinda wierd and a maniac. I tried at home speaking loudly with my relatives but here every word is being said, 'like smooth flow of river'. Yes my speaking at home is fluent but as soon as i get outside i slur alot. I asked this to one person whose reply was that i was lacking confidence. So next time with full energy while at the same moment remaining calm i told a joke and an innovative idea. No laugh or amusement! They...mind me...made crossed faces.
yes slurring did occur that time. And during my talk i repeated my sentences twice.
What's happening with me?
How can i overcome it, if im still lacking confidence?
Anyhow, its been 6 months since I have been going to the college and still i am under total pressure. I am doing well in studies, which has been proved with my test marks and performance, as claimed by my corresponding lecturers. But unfortunately, all day during break times and gaps between two classes i and my classmates are free. I remain silent and listen to their discussions. Moreover, I am not a nerd...as I am good in studying but not a freak to be swimming in books every time. The topics my friends like to discuss is out of my interest. Most are gossips and glamor concerning Hollywood and bollywood. Well I tried to resemble in this but i don't have any special channels or magazine(nor does my mom allow coz i'll be grounded). Hence, this chapter remains closed. So here no question arises. Ok now comes the part of my speaking problem. which is the actual part that I am concerned with.
When I talk, say "I'm fine". These words will be well imprinted in my mind but when i speak up it'll emerge out as, "I'm file"...which sounds kinda wierd and a maniac. I tried at home speaking loudly with my relatives but here every word is being said, 'like smooth flow of river'. Yes my speaking at home is fluent but as soon as i get outside i slur alot. I asked this to one person whose reply was that i was lacking confidence. So next time with full energy while at the same moment remaining calm i told a joke and an innovative idea. No laugh or amusement! They...mind me...made crossed faces.
yes slurring did occur that time. And during my talk i repeated my sentences twice.
What's happening with me?
How can i overcome it, if im still lacking confidence?
