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I don't get flared up... but I don't like being where I am not wanted!!!
That kinda relieved me. Thanks, Ammar. You XPCians are an amazing bunch! =)Hey, Never lose hope.. You don't know what upcoming life is going to bring to you. The best thing you can do now is try to stay happy.. Forget the past and focus on your future.. Always remember, Losers let thing happen, winners make thing happen.
You know what touched me the most, that fantasy part, I've that too, in my imagination, I can pass hours in my imagination... I know it's really hard when your self-esteem is low, when you're going nowhere in your life, it really feels so bad, but I think in this time period, A person realize what he's made of, what potential does he have, make the most of it, know yourself. Never look back unless you are planning to go that way.
The strongest man in the world is he who stands most alone.
Life is never easy. I believe it gets better as the time passes by.Start your morning with a smile, have good expectation from your life and Allah will do the best. Everything happens for a reason, Almighty knows it, we don't. I know it's almost as easy to say as hard as to implement but once you start believing that things are going to be good, good things will start happening by their selves. I wish you all the best in your future life, In Sha Allah, Almighty will do better.
P.S I know my English is sucking now a days.
who said you don't have any friend.... I really really want to/love to be your friend..I am going to share the story of my life.
How much I had to pay for the one wrong decision I made. That decision was to drop out of school. I ruined my life! In school, I was a very sharp girl. I used to get highest marks in all subjects, used to answer questions aimed at others, I was the best debater, used to participate in every competition from singing to basketball. ._. My parents were against my decision but somehow I managed to make up their mind. But then I left school, I ruined my life. I ruined my result.
My life is over. I lost my friends. Now I just have a few online friends whom my life depends on. Dependency is a sheer misery! Yeah, I depend on them but what hurts the most is that I mean nothing to anyone except for someone who can be used to end boredom or one who can entertain them.
Life is a cruel mistress. It laughs at me, it dismisses me and it gives me a thousand more lashes for being disobedient every single time. Life enjoys watching me FALL!
I think about suicide but I can't commit it due to hopes and dreams of the only ones left, my family though I wanted more people to care. Is it selfish to think so? My self-esteem is dangerously low and I veer into emptiness, a mechanistic existence, it's the cancer called 'life' that afflicts me. I no longer live for myself, I just live because there's no option left. I pretend, I surrender, I acquiesce.
But then, am I living anymore?
My loneliness compelled me to create my own imaginary family where I have a son named 'Ayyan' and a daughter named 'Bahishte'. All day, I am lost in my fantasies. It's quite never been under my control to be alone or not. Sometimes as hard as far as you try to reach out to people they are acclimatized to their own friend circle bubble afraid for a change in social entropy lest I, well, burst their bubble.
So as much as I wouldn't want to be alone all my life, I've come to respect how I don't have to be diplomatic and dishonest about things anymore, how there is so much time to think about the way life works, and the ugly truth what companionship and friendship means to people today, how it has made me even more stubborn about my ideals and my dreams and how I don't have to acquiesce to the norms of what is considered acceptable.
Moreover, friends are found by the virtue of fate and last a lifetime. Maybe I find friends that care unconditionally, don't have an ulterior motive and don't use me.
#Hopelessness #Loneliness #Regret #Frustration
Awwn. That was really sweet of you, kiddo. :')who said you don't have any friend.... I really really want to/love to be your friend..
Forget everything about the pass and start your own and new LIFE....
I wish I could tell you more more and more and I will tell you and help you to make you happy and proud on your life....
Regards,
Abdullah
#Alhamdulillah
Awwn. That was really sweet of you, kiddo. :')
I am okay now. I am living a happy life with my two adorable kids.
Stay blessed everyone. KEEP CALM AND EAT SHAWARMA. 
WOW!!! I have read your article more than 2 times.. and to be honest with you THIS IS FANTASTIC...It's been more than a couple of years since I joined XPC. As far as I see XPC, this XPC family, It's totally awesome. All of us just didn't came out of nowhere. Everyone got a very unique background, a story, a mystery, a tale, something really Touchy, Incredible and Amazing.
I saw people sharing things, events, past stories, happenings. They all are brave, all earned my respect. It's just not about this thread. I've heard so many people, telling about what they've gone through... And I thought only I'm brave, they proved me wrong, totally wrong.
I never want to complaint Almighty for anything. It's just not me, it's not just someone else, everyone got problems. Mostly, bigger problems than we do. If I see my life upside down, he blessed me with so many things, more than I deserved, I guess. It's so ironic that we always complaint about the bad things and things we don't have but hardly thank Allah for blessing us all the things He gave us. Think about it.
I believe every problem comes with a solution... I know I'm not a really important personality or something that anyone should listen to me. But. as a member of XPC family, I just want to speak my heart out, what life taught me... God help those who help themselves. If someone don't want to stay happy, he won't be happy with every luxury of the world and if someone want to stay happy, he can live in a small life with nothing. It's up to us. We make our destiny.
We should always be grateful to ALLAH. He always have a good plan for us. I believe it with all my heart. Whenever I feel low, I take a deep breath, it's just a bad day, not a bad life. I believe you have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life. Never blame any day of your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience and the worst days give you a lesson.
The best way to live a life, as far as I see it. When you wake up, firstly, thank Allah, start your day with a smile, believe that today is going to be really good. Eat some good breakfast (not just it keeps you healthy but it also keeps your away from depression and tension; Sounds mind sound body), If you've got your school/college, dress up, wear good deodorant, brush your hairs, see yourself in mirror, I bet you're looking beautiful. Have a positive attitude. Attitude changes everything. Keep a smile in your face, it really builds a good impression and make your personality look better. It's not necessary that you should have so many friends. I can count my friends in couple of fingertips, I guess. The thing which matter is YOU. We never know our true strength until adversity comes our way, if nothing else hardship teaches us about ourselves. Spend time with your family as well. Specially parents, Love your parents, we are so busy growing up that we often forget they are also growing old. Always hope for the best and ready to face every new challenge of life.
To be honest, I know 90% of you all will find it boring, I know, and it's okay.. but even if one of you, who think his/her life sucks read this and get some help or any inspiration, it's enough for me. Sorry for being off topic. I've no idea why I wrote all this but it's just I know how it feels when you think your life has no value. It feels disgusting. Everyone is like stay happy, do this and that and bla bla, nothing works. The best thing we can do is fight. Fight for what we deserve. Losers let things happen, Winners make thing happen. I can promise you if you'll just try to change your life, even if you don't succeed (I believe it's just an exception, when there is a will, there is a way), you won't regret that you never even tried to make things right. You'll always end up satisfy with yourselves. Like a rainbow after the rain, there's always a good thing after the pain.
Okay, so now this message is turning out so big that I am wondering who wrote this. Because I suck in writing things. So that's all folks.
Have a good life.
The problem is we dont. We dont thank Allah for everything. Why, why dont we want to even think about it. And I only find one answer. Only one. Our hearts our dead. We are alive. but our hearts are dead.
Sorry brother Ammar. For butting in again and again. but I felt like sharing it. My sincere apologies.
Do u know what taqdeer is. Yes u do. AND Thats the thing we cant change. THAT isnt in our hands. What Allah has written or us... No one can change it. It WILL happen. The hardships, the sorrows, the difficulties.... If Allah has written for us. It WILL happen. No can protect us. But it is up to us. To thank Allah in those difficult times too. Its difficult. Too difficult. That when hardships strike us. we forget Him.
It feels disgusting. It feels irritating. it feels annoying... Most of us can understand those feelings. Those emotions. But Theres one thing brother Ammar. We will never be satisfied... NEVER.. Unless we come close to Allah.. That hole in our hearts will always be there. We will always be fed up of oyr lives... We'll always want to suicide... Unless and Untill we remove the evils within our hearts.. Unless and untill we start living according to Islam.. Obeying Allah... and his Prophet. Otherwise. we will never become happy. Never.
Sorry for going a far too off topic. My Apologies to everyone... But consider these as My feelings.
What you've written above is really beautiful. I'm sorry if something I write hurt anyone. I just wrote what I feel. No offence at all. Take care, have a good day. Don't forget to smile because life is too short to stay sad.
WOW!!! I have read your article more than 2 times.. and to be honest with you THIS IS FANTASTIC...
That was the GREATEST THING TO SHARE............. thanks for sharing all that
Thanks a lot
asssalam o alaikum wr wb! jazak Allah for writing this! it is awesome!It's been more than a couple of years since I joined XPC. As far as I see XPC, this XPC family, It's totally awesome. All of us just didn't came out of nowhere. Everyone got a very unique background, a story, a mystery, a tale, something really Touchy, Incredible and Amazing.
I saw people sharing things, events, past stories, happenings. They all are brave, all earned my respect. It's just not about this thread. I've heard so many people, telling about what they've gone through... And I thought only I'm brave, they proved me wrong, totally wrong.
I never want to complaint Almighty for anything. It's just not me, it's not just someone else, everyone got problems. Mostly, bigger problems than we do. If I see my life upside down, he blessed me with so many things, more than I deserved, I guess. It's so ironic that we always complaint about the bad things and things we don't have but hardly thank Allah for blessing us all the things He gave us. Think about it.
I believe every problem comes with a solution... I know I'm not a really important personality or something that anyone should listen to me. But. as a member of XPC family, I just want to speak my heart out, what life taught me... God help those who help themselves. If someone don't want to stay happy, he won't be happy with every luxury of the world and if someone want to stay happy, he can live in a small life with nothing. It's up to us. We make our destiny.
We should always be grateful to ALLAH. He always have a good plan for us. I believe it with all my heart. Whenever I feel low, I take a deep breath, it's just a bad day, not a bad life. I believe you have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life. Never blame any day of your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience and the worst days give you a lesson.
The best way to live a life, as far as I see it. When you wake up, firstly, thank Allah, start your day with a smile, believe that today is going to be really good. Eat some good breakfast (not just it keeps you healthy but it also keeps your away from depression and tension; Sounds mind sound body), If you've got your school/college, dress up, wear good deodorant, brush your hairs, see yourself in mirror, I bet you're looking beautiful. Have a positive attitude. Attitude changes everything. Keep a smile in your face, it really builds a good impression and make your personality look better. It's not necessary that you should have so many friends. I can count my friends in couple of fingertips, I guess. The thing which matter is YOU. We never know our true strength until adversity comes our way, if nothing else hardship teaches us about ourselves. Spend time with your family as well. Specially parents, Love your parents, we are so busy growing up that we often forget they are also growing old. Always hope for the best and ready to face every new challenge of life.
To be honest, I know 90% of you all will find it boring, I know, and it's okay.. but even if one of you, who think his/her life sucks read this and get some help or any inspiration, it's enough for me. Sorry for being off topic. I've no idea why I wrote all this but it's just I know how it feels when you think your life has no value. It feels disgusting. Everyone is like stay happy, do this and that and bla bla, nothing works. The best thing we can do is fight. Fight for what we deserve. Losers let things happen, Winners make thing happen. I can promise you if you'll just try to change your life, even if you don't succeed (I believe it's just an exception, when there is a will, there is a way), you won't regret that you never even tried to make things right. You'll always end up satisfy with yourselves. Like a rainbow after the rain, there's always a good thing after the pain.
Okay, so now this message is turning out so big that I am wondering who wrote this. Because I suck in writing things. So that's all folks.
Have a good life.
I dont think so. My apologies again.. Hardships may/can go by our efforts. I agree to that. But memories dont..... Never. They be sad or happy... They never go..... And again. fighting those memories is very hard... Its sometimes impossible... Especially if they are harsh. Even if one is mentally very strong or how much positive he/she may be. Fighting memories IS hard.Yeah, that's the main thing... It's not easy to hope that the hardships will go away, they won't, until one makes an effort. Bad time and memories often don't go away by themselves, we have to fight against them. We can only fight against them if we're mentally strong and positive and for this, we must have to believe in ourselves. Believing in ourselves is the second name of believing in the Creator.
Yeah, I'm agree. Most of us fail. As far as I see it, it's not easy... But as the time passes by, or if someone is there for him/her, it seems easier and somehow one manage to pass the Test.
P.S Your English is perfect.
Again, I repeat. Everyone has right to make their own opinion. There's no doubt that Memories never fade away, specially when they are harsh. Fighting with them is really hard, but not impossible. Life goes on, it doesn't wait for anyone. If one just stay stuck in his past and don't move on, He could never achieve something and live a good life. Islam teaches us to do 'Sabrr', Tolerance and patience. We can move on by having a positive approach. We should at least give us something to fight over, so we can get out of that past zone and start a new life. Remember, every finish line is the beginning of the new race. Thought and memories can do what the noose cannot. They don't asphyxiate or obliterate my body but garrote my soul.No apologies needed.
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